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Relationships aren’t for me.

Guess it’s back to the lonely side of things.

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34 minutes ago

rawr0609:

turkeytree:

chelseaalysse:

"Everything in my head went quiet. 

All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared. 

When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments. 

Even in bed, I’m thinking: 
Did I lock the doors? Yes. 
Did I wash my hands? Yes. 
Did I lock the doors? Yes. 
Did I wash my hands? Yes. 
But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips.. 
Or the eyelash on her cheek- 
the eyelash on her cheek- 
the eyelash on her cheek. 
I knew I had to talk to her. 
I asked her out six times in thirty seconds. 
She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going. 
On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or talking to her.. 
But she loved it. 
She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times at different times of the day. 
She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk. 
When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely lock the door eighteen times. 
I’d always watch her mouth when she talked- 
when she talked- 
when she talked- 
when she talked; 
when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges. 
At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off. 
She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her. 
But then.. She said I was taking up too much of her time. 
That I couldn’t kiss her goodbye so much because I was making her late for work.. 
When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line.. 
When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking.. 
And last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place. 
She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but.. 
How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touch her? 
Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t. 
I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her. 
Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin. 
I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars.. 
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on. 
I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel.. 
How she turns shower knobs like she opening a safe. 
How she blows out candles- 
blows out candles- 
blows out candles- 
blows out candles- 
blows out-…. 
Now, I just think about who else is kissing her. 
I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once-he doesn’t care if it’s perfect! 
I want her back so bad.. 
I leave the door unlocked. 
I leave the lights on. ”

I’ve always seen this gif and never really understood it till now. So heartbreaking. 

this whole thing really fucks me up man

800k ppl see this and yall still use OCD as a joke & an adjective

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35 minutes ago
finding-fucken-nemo:

newyorksjojo:

spookingdemons:

fucknbosschick:

youdtearthiscanvasskinapart:

vitalemontea:

sketchlock:

thegrimmgrimm:

aburritoofsadness:

iamswagg007:

kgrossniklaus:

gentlemanbones:

I hate game night with the engineering graduates

Don’t get me started on Poker Night with the math students. 

Monopoly with business majors is the worst

Scrabble with english majors is a nightmare.

i can’t believe those weren’t puns

Don’t forget Pictionary with Art Students.

Words against humanity with sociologist and poli sci students is horrifying

PLAY CLUE WITH INVESTIGATIVE LAW MAJORS AND THEN COME TALK TO ME

BEST POST ON TUMBLR.

Operation with a surgeon…

On the other hand, Rock Band with the music majors is beautiful.

oh shit

finding-fucken-nemo:

newyorksjojo:

spookingdemons:

fucknbosschick:

youdtearthiscanvasskinapart:

vitalemontea:

sketchlock:

thegrimmgrimm:

aburritoofsadness:

iamswagg007:

kgrossniklaus:

gentlemanbones:

I hate game night with the engineering graduates

Don’t get me started on Poker Night with the math students. 

Monopoly with business majors is the worst

Scrabble with english majors is a nightmare.

i can’t believe those weren’t puns

Don’t forget Pictionary with Art Students.

Words against humanity with sociologist and poli sci students is horrifying

PLAY CLUE WITH INVESTIGATIVE LAW MAJORS AND THEN COME TALK TO ME

BEST POST ON TUMBLR.

Operation with a surgeon…

On the other hand, Rock Band with the music majors is beautiful.

oh shit

(Source: the-thought-emporium-imperial, via myatmosphericflight)

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Posted
4 days ago

darning-socks:

You’re allowed to be sad, but please don’t think that nobody loves you.

(via thefuuuucomics)

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Posted
5 days ago

Kid gets a banana as a prank gift from his parents on his birthday. Look at his excitement. This kid is my hero. 


Me

Kid gets a banana as a prank gift from his parents on his birthday. Look at his excitement. This kid is my hero. 

Me

(Source: funnynhilariousgif, via thefuuuucomics)

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5 days ago

super-who-locked-in:

josh is the person i want to be…drake is the person i am

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5 days ago

youmeatnever:

teppeliin:

Just who the hell do you think we are?!

This anime made me so emotional

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5 days ago

yeah-okay-seph:

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coconutoil97:

the essentials fa life in ny

reall shit

I love my city! 🙌

I would murder for some pollo horno and maduros right now

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5 days ago

spiceyoursillylife:

The best proposal I’ll ever witness.

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